You guys know I’ve not been at my best these past months. I’ve felt like there’s something wrong with me, but I couldn’t put a finger on it. Finally this month I managed to articulate it to the point that I found practical solutions that worked. Needless to say, but beyond practical solutions, it felt like the moment I named my battle, I reclaimed authority. It feels like a breakthrough. The sleepless nights are the same, but the days have been reclaimed. The hormones could still be imbalanced, but life’s rhythms now work well. Brain fog is as real as ever, but clarity comes.
There’s something deeply spiritual about naming what you’re going through. When I finally understood that this fog wasn’t forever and wasn’t a flaw in me, it was as if the rays of sun finally pierced through the clouds. I realized the enemy had been quietly taking advantage of my confusion, whispering lies.
But when I named the season I was in and saw it for what it was, the enemy’s grip lost its hold. I wasn’t falling apart. I was recovering. I wasn’t failing. I was just stretched.
Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
John 8:32
The moment I recognized what was happening—that articulation—it felt like I reclaimed spiritual ground. I haven’t been feeling I’m not at my best since. I started to recognize it for what it is, which is simply a reality of my current season having four young kids with twin babies, among other things. The turning point wasn’t just naming what I was experiencing, but in defining what was real and what were lies.
Lies
- You’re not doing enough.
- You’re not present.
- You’re failing at what matters most.
Reality
- I gave birth to twins less than a year ago.
- I have four young children.
- I work a full-time, complex job.
- My sleep is fragmented.
- My brain and body are healing.
This is just a phase. My mind is healing. My body is still adjusting. I am held by God in the middle of this fog. And it’s going to clear out soon enough. I face my season head on with the power of God, and at the same time in stillness with the peace of God.
We take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:5
If You’re in the Fog Too
Maybe some of you are in the same place. You can’t think clearly. You’re forgetting things. You feel like you’re operating 40% on a good day.
This doesn’t mean you’re broken. It doesn’t mean you’re not spiritual enough. It doesn’t mean you’re failing.
It means you’re human. It means you’ve been pouring out. It means you need grace, not guilt; recovery, not shame.
This post comes with a prayer that you would also find rays of clarity amid the fog, and that the truth of your identity in Christ surfaces through the clouds. I pray that the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard your (and my) heart in Christ Jesus, as we draw near to Him and seek His help and wisdom this season.
